I’m almost finish with my first trimester but I still have a lot of anxiety. Hopefully my next Doctor’s apt in a few days will lessen it. I hate to admit this but I’ve become like many newly expecting women out there who will constantly search the internet for why my body is this way, and fear of losing my baby. I’m not use to the changes physically and mentally. Though what is seriously eating me up is the anxiety I feel when I read about miscarriages & stillbirth. Even though my Doctor hasn’t considered me a high risk pregnant woman, I still worry during the little time I’m awake.
I know I should relax. I already had two appointments and they both went well. The only concern was my family’s history of diabetes. My sisters were at risk for gestational diabetes and my mom had diabetes as well. So I’m trying my best to eat a little better than before. Now I’m also considered overweight if you consider my BMI so I kind of wish I lost more weight before I became pregnant.
The physical changes I’m experiencing is a little weird to be honest. I put on 7 lbs as of now. It’s annoying to find out the only thing I can wear right now are elastic shorts. Luckily it is still pretty hot so I don’t need maternity pants yet. I just feel so uncomfortable too. My husband says I look beautiful and I thank him for saying it. I gently remind him I just don’t recognize my body in the mirror, my self esteem is ok. The changes is something I’m getting use to.
This will probably sound immature but I never expected so many visits to the OB/GYN. I guess the average pregnant woman usually has around 10 appointments or more during their pregnancy. I’m so glad my husband has decent insurance. We only had to pay for one appointment as of now and I already had 2 appointments, 1 lab test. If I had my old insurance I would be paying for EVERY visit. My sister was concern about my insurance not paying enough but she was very surprise they do cover a lot for a healthy pregnancy. I guess under her plan to give birth, it averages between $2,000- $4,000. Since my husband is union, it is roughly $500-$1,000.