With a blink of an eye 2018 is just around the corner. 2017 feels like any year for me except of course my son bringing us joy with his excitement of literally anything new. Having children doesn’t always improve people’s lives but for us, he truly brings us a different kind of happiness. Aside from my son, my marriage and my online selling journey, has made me want different things.
It’s weird to think people want to change when the New Year comes. Why doesn’t it happen during the year? Oh well I am one of those people who routinely reflect the upcoming new year and to be honest I just want to do MORE things I enjoy.
This year I left my part time job as a merchandiser. Plenty of reasons why I left it but my sole reason was to spend more time with my family. I already did before but when my husband started to have anxiety, it was a good decision to spend more time at home. The money I was bringing in was good, especially since I learned quickly and was efficient in “merchandising” that with the overage of hours I can claim, I was making 15+ an hour. This was part time work though so it was between 10-25 hours a week I was working. I was able to by focusing more on online selling.
There is so many online platforms to sell on that it is a learning curve to really succeed by your own personal definition. I currently sell on eBay and Poshmark as my main inventory is clothing. I have been doing this for years part time so to think it’s been bringing home income is wonderful. Unfortunately with me wanting to bring more money into our home would also mean things have been sidelined.
Melt & Pour Soap I made last year.
I thought this year I would be making soap and bath bombs. That hobby kind of ended when I decided more to focus on reselling online. Maybe in 2018 I should bring that hobby out again and learn more. I really want to make beautiful swirl soaps with fantastic fragrances.
As a family I feel we do spend enough time together. Growing up with a 2 income home has it’s plus and minuses. I felt as a child I didn’t get to spend enough time with my parents. So to be able to give time like that to my son makes me happy and wished my parents didn’t have to work so hard. Yet they had to so it’s not something I would take back since they had to feed 5 children.
Financially, at the point where we are at, I think we are doing ok. We haven’t really tapped into our mutual fund other than for a down payment on a car. in 2018 I think we are mostly going to focus on paying down my student loan. We might go on a family trip to FL though.
How was your 2017?
This year we aren’t sending Christmas cards out. We usually do but I just became so busy that the first week of December was already here. I normally buy custom ones from Shutterfly.com . I even had some cute pictures of my family with snapchat filters. It’s not a huge deal but I just liked sending them out when I can.
For December I notice things are a little hectic so I won’t be focusing on eBay so much. We usually have a family Christmas party (on my husband side), short family vacation, and just a wind done of things. My eBay business is usually slow ( also putting it on vacation), and my husband job is slow as well ( he will work overtime if possible).
So right now I may post more or less. I just want to take the time to really figure out what I want in 2018. Are you doing anything special for 2018?
eBay has been bad in terms of sales lately. This whole fourth quarter thing hasn’t really hit me well. I pretty much missed the 4th quarter bus. I really hope it changes soon. Whatever is going on I can’t just sit here and wait. I’m getting closer to my inventory is organized better. You see I decided to cross list my inventory on poshmark. I’m taking a big risk cross listing because most selling platforms don’t like cross listings. Especially eBay but I feel my niche is better represented through Poshmark. First step to cross listing is to have an organized inventory.
This morning I woke up to the news of the Las Vegas shooter. I had some text from family wondering if I was ok and even questions from people I haven’t heard from in a while. Immediately I read online about the shooting and started texting, replying, and making sure my husband was ok.
I thought maybe he had to skip work but he wasn’t very late. He didn’t know what was going on and why there was so much traffic. While he was able to go to work, some of his coworkers had to be turn away due to parts of the strip being closed. It’s surreal what is going on. While people close to me are safe, and people I haven’t heard from a while are ok, they have friends or relatives who were at that concert.
I had to stop reading the news after I notice I stress ate all day. It’s what I do to cope when I’m stressed. So I just had to stop reading the news, and stay off social media. The news in general is frustrating because in reality I feel they are reporting news that benefits them and not the people trying to find out why this happened.
My father in law is visiting us near my husband’s birthday which is Halloween. It’s been a really long time since he visited. Actually the last time he visited was when Calvin was born but I didn’t get to go home. I didn’t get to spend very much time with him but at least he and my husband spent some time together.
He doesn’t visit often because he feels he is intruding. Which is weird for him to say because we love visiting him. So I am a little nervous because right now I’m trying to clean my house and fix up the guest room for him. I am looking forward to his visit but I hate to admit it’s like I want him to be please with our lifestyle. The Martha Stewart in me has been on vacation… forever. Ok the Martha Stewart in me is still in training and isn’t graduating in home making anytime soon.
I think I would faint of embarrassment if he ever EVER walks in to my eBay room. It’s not organized or categorized.
As my son lives the carefree life of a toddler, I’m always wondering if what I’m doing will help him become a good person. I’m also wondering how can I protect him? Then I remind myself I can’t. I can always hole him up at home and give him things he wants but I know that isn’t right.
I want to protect him from his first heartbreak. My heart rate always raises a little when he falls and gets a boo boo. I also try to expose him to things hes not normally around (like outside, it’s friggin hot right now). I also try to limit him to shows he won’t pick up bad words from. Yet in reality I do have to say no, and let him fall, and let him get dirty.
I mentioned back something awful happened to my side of my family which is currently under investigation. While I’m not under investigation, close direct family members are and it’s already tearing my family apart. It involves one of my nephew and niece and this really is proof we can’t protect our children. I wish I can blog about it more but it would just make me cry.
Quick blog today. I just wanted to blog about something my husband’s therapist said that really resonated with me. “We are emotional beings trying to be rational, which doesn’t always make sense to do.” That’s the gist of it. There was definitely more to that saying but hearing it really made me think. This struggle to be “Happy” probably is really everyone trying to be rational, and maybe trying to be seen as normal.
There is always this need for everybody from all walks of life just trying to make it day by day. Even people like me who is seemingly happy does need therapy to truly understand what I need and want. I’m not the one seeing a therapist but there are times I wish I could speak to one to truly understand why I behave the way I do and how to effectively live my life. Then again I am an emotional being trying to be rational. No one always lives their life effectively as possible.
As for my husband, yes its sessions for a while. I’m glad his therapist suggested he sees him one on one. My husband really wanted me to be there but it didn’t felt right to me.I know we generally don’t keep secrets from each other but I shouldn’t be the only outlet for him to deal with what’s going on with him. If you just happened to click by, my husband has been having anxiety and depressive episodes. Which may or may not have any relations to his childhood ADD. His therapist seems to think so though.